What's It Like Being You?

The life of me.
Yikes.

There's really nothing to say about my life besides it being one big mess. Right now, yes, my life is a mess. I'm a mess. Hot, steaming mess. My room right now looks like a tornado flew through it. Clothes all over the place, desk all messed and torn up. I don't even want to do my homework in there because I'll get distracted thinking about the mess my room is.

Speaking of homework, I HAVEN'T BEEN DOING IT. Well, I have. But it's been a real struggle. It's so hard trying to learn new stuff, especially in Chemistry and Trig. Those are my two worst subjects. I don't know if I can make it through the rest of the semester without completely losing my mind.

But wait, Lauryn, you still haven't told us what it's like being you.

YOU'RE CORRECT.

What is it like being me? Good question. I actually don't know.

Lauryn is a person, a human being, with little knowledge of herself. She has no idea of who she is and why she's here. She constantly questions herself and questions the world and is often looked at as "odd" or "crazy, in a good way." She wants to be everything but is nothing in reality, because her soul can't quite grasp onto what she wants. She is everything in the universe yet she's nothing on earth. And she's sorry to get all weirdly poetic on you, but she can't help it.

Why does she keep talking in third person?
OK stop.


A little about my life, no I don't know what I want to be. And it frustrates me everyday. I feel so unprepared.. like I'm going to wake up one day and my whole life has passed me by. I don't want that. I want to know what lies ahead of me so I can prepare myself for it.... but I know that isn't possible in today's world.


I wake up and look in the mirror and I don't particularity like what I see.. but I mask myself with "beauty" to make myself look better. And I quoted "beauty" because it's only what society thinks makes women look beautiful. Natural beauty is key, I'm just not comfortable with that natural beauty thing yet.. my face is off lol. It used to be so cute and proportional, but it's not anymore.


I'll continue this little rant some other day lol.

Until then,

Lauryn