School, Motivation, and Thinking of the Future. What a drag.

Have you ever thought about your life in the near future? For example, have you ever asked yourself questions like am I gonna be in school? Will I have a car? Will I have friends? What will my major be? Will I still be living with my parents? Et cetera et cetera...

Lately I've been asking myself these questions a lot. I have no idea why. Part of it might be because I am picking classes for my junior year and I'm kind of being pressured into figuring out what I want to go to school for. And that wouldn't be a problem if I actually knew what I wanted to be. But that's just the issue! I don't know what the heck I wanna do with my life. And I know it's still pretty early to be deciding, but at the same time college is just around the corner. And my grades have also been slipping, and my counselor sees that too. She even asked me, "Are you ready to take on the responsibility of taking 3 AP classes?" But the thing is, I'm pretty confident about it. The AP classes that I'm taking are ones I actually enjoy. I like reading and writing, so I'm taking AP Language and Composition. I like learning about our history, so I decided to take AP U.S. History. And lastly I decided to take AP Psychology because I want to know more about humans and emotions and the reasoning as to why certain people are the way they are and why different people act certain ways. That may be more sociology, but who knows. I guess I'll figure out when I start the class in the fall.

Lately I've also been comparing myself to students who get really good grades. I envy them. I always think of what makes them so dedicated to their school work.. I just can't get motivated. Which is, in part, why I don't do my homework sometimes and don't study. Lack of motivation = no working. But I guess that attitude is kind of changing, considering this year is almost over and I have less than 3 years left of high school. I should probably get it together now, huh?

What a drag.


Lauryn