Thought #4: Can Minorities Be Racist? (con,t)

You can't oppress your oppressor. Reverse oppression does not exist!

Please take a look at this article! It explains everything, I promise.

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"Music is a safe kind of high." -Jimi Hendrix

Old Memories Make New Ideas

Isn't it funny when you're digging stuff from the deep tunnels of your room and you find the craziest and oldest stuff? I found this notebook with a whole bunch of ideas for a book I wanted to write for teen girls. It's funny, because I had probably only just turned 13 when I wrote these.

 I had all these dreams about how I was gonna be a YouTuber and maybe one day, a famous author. I loved reading those books dedicated to girls my age. And I loved reading fantasy books. I was just a real book worm. I wanted to be the person writing the books. I wanted to create something of my own. But, of course, that would require a lot of help from others. And I didn't have many friends and I hated talking (still do).

The reason that I'm putting this up here is because I actually had some really good topics in this notebook to write about. Now, not all of them are good. Some of them are horrible. Like how to fake tan. I don't really think anyone (in my circle) would be interested in that. And I don't know how to do that anyway. But certain stuff in here I think would make good blog posts. 

I just have to believe that if I want to do something, I can do it. No matter what anyone tells me. I just have to work hard at it and have a passion for it. And I have a passion for this and many other things. I just have to set my mind to it and work hard at it. That's my goal. That is what I must do. 

I've always told myself that I wasn't really good at anything, and while that may be true, I'm decent at doing some things. I may not be the best at it but I can be. If I, once again, work hard at it.

I think a big inspiration for me is J. Cole. He worked really hard to be where he is today and he doesn't brag about his lifestyle to the world, but rather he raps about loving who we are and appreciating the life we have.

Lauryn

School, Motivation, and Thinking of the Future. What a drag.

Have you ever thought about your life in the near future? For example, have you ever asked yourself questions like am I gonna be in school? Will I have a car? Will I have friends? What will my major be? Will I still be living with my parents? Et cetera et cetera...

Lately I've been asking myself these questions a lot. I have no idea why. Part of it might be because I am picking classes for my junior year and I'm kind of being pressured into figuring out what I want to go to school for. And that wouldn't be a problem if I actually knew what I wanted to be. But that's just the issue! I don't know what the heck I wanna do with my life. And I know it's still pretty early to be deciding, but at the same time college is just around the corner. And my grades have also been slipping, and my counselor sees that too. She even asked me, "Are you ready to take on the responsibility of taking 3 AP classes?" But the thing is, I'm pretty confident about it. The AP classes that I'm taking are ones I actually enjoy. I like reading and writing, so I'm taking AP Language and Composition. I like learning about our history, so I decided to take AP U.S. History. And lastly I decided to take AP Psychology because I want to know more about humans and emotions and the reasoning as to why certain people are the way they are and why different people act certain ways. That may be more sociology, but who knows. I guess I'll figure out when I start the class in the fall.

Lately I've also been comparing myself to students who get really good grades. I envy them. I always think of what makes them so dedicated to their school work.. I just can't get motivated. Which is, in part, why I don't do my homework sometimes and don't study. Lack of motivation = no working. But I guess that attitude is kind of changing, considering this year is almost over and I have less than 3 years left of high school. I should probably get it together now, huh?

What a drag.


Lauryn